I hate...

It takes no reasons to love and to hate... correct me if I am wrong. Sometimes you love someone who does not deserve your love and your caring. S/he even does not love you back, but you still try to treat him/her well. You know you cannot go on... yet you cannot turn back. For better or worse, you are willing to accept the pain.

I wrote this poem in Khmer language in 2008. I try to write as if I were a girl who was suffering from love. She cannot do anything but pray for her boy's return. Fearful, painful and desperate, she started to hate everything that reminded her of old lover, finally herself.

I HATE...

I hate my shedding tears

I hate your cruel mind

I hate my mind missing you

I hate the stars above in the sky.

I hate heart drawings

I hate my broken heart

I hate the destiny that led me to meet you

I hate the malice which has come between us.

I hate my waiting heart

I hate all words which lead to tears

I hate your steel heart

I hate my cry for you.

I hate the songs we used to listen together

I hate our previous talks

I hate myself praying for your love

I hate my heart which cannot hate you at all.